I decided to leave
I will hop back into my spaceship
And go back to my lost world
Back to the maker who put me here
without my permission
The atmosphere is too toxic to continue breathing
The people I met were full of deception
Narcissistic and desperate
I decided to leave
And leave behind the best memories I could create
Memories full of pain, death and love
Love is the greatest thing I ever imagined
But I decided to leave
Because I couldn’t find the love anymore
The negatives poisoned my spirt and shook my beliefs
Now I’m lost and wandering
So I decided to leave
In my spaceship
Towards the unknown
Looking for love in a far away galaxy

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These words mean nothing
They are as hollow as barrels in the street
Echoing and reverberating and dispersing into the wind
When she spoke to me of love
I could see through the facade
Knowing she reeked of infidelity
The stench of another man on her lips
Preaching to me a gospel which was soiled with untruth
Like a preacher with an addiction to falsehoods
Her words meant nothing
But I swallowed her poison pills like a patient
In need of pain relief
Ingesting her placebos
knowing the effects would be negligent
Her words meant nothing
But my fear of loneliness hesitated my exit
It prolonged my escape
So I listen everyday
Waiting for the day
Till I’m convinced her words
have meaning

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If love is not meant for me
Then its onward like Prancer
In this race of life
Need that pole position like exotic dancers
They want to see the bag
before they show the love
Transactions draining my mental account
How much spent
I can’t tally the amount
She looks to the stars
Drowning her demons in a bottle
Living life in the fast lane at full throttle
She’s sick of men
But falls back into that toxic love
That back and forth of “I love you”
And “I don’t give a fuck”
Now she wants to waste my time
With feelings she never felt before
She hit rock bottom
Telling me all her flaws
Put her on a pedestal to reach for the sky
This is suicide love
But she’s not ready to die

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